DirtBat

I can't stand your face Not it's beauty or its grace It's mocking me, haunting me Lately it is all I see I can't stand your voice Not it's reason or its choice It beckons me, taunting me Denying me of all I need I can't stand your touch It's softest caress is too much It tortures me, oh, you torture me I'm convinced that i'm dying Deprived of your presence Starved of your essence Its killing me, killing m

You always take it to the heart But I can't seem to see like you So now if it all falls apart You're the one that knows what to do While i'm stuck, lost and confused You never take what is not given A feeling hurt is too much to bear So now if i'm all guilt ridden You're the one that shows that you care While i'm cold, alone, and scared Why can't I be strong like you I've been weak for much too long Why can't I be sure like you I've been confused for oh so long Why can't I be strong like you I can't save myself, I need you You always speak words I need to hear But I never know just what to say So now if i'm taken by fear Yo

Cant decide what to do Should I ask the question Or let you slip from my aching fingers Either way Ill lose Despite anything that I might gain If I ask then Im under pressure Bound to disappoint or be disappointed If I dont then there is no pain Except that Ill hurt anyway There is no way that I can win So what should I do Should I ruin what we have To take a chance at something more Or let things stay the same And dream what might have been Im aching and Im sore From trying to decide Maybe Im looking too much into this I should do whatever I feel is right But I still dont know what to do

Collect my conscience just to cast it out In a fit of rage because you hate me so I bring you apathy with my sympathy Your ears bleed from my symphony Correct you when you are right because I hate you so Don't you tell me that I need to go I'm already out the door with my back against the wall But when the going is going slow And we both need a pillow to break the fall We will collide with each other blindly I think it's time we start the show There is too much drama left to watch unfold The comedy still remains to be seen Document the story of our lives in slow motion There is too much action to take in All the horror is just

She brings me white roses As pale as her soft skin We make a bed of petals For us to get lost in We confess our love And we commit our sin Break the chains that hold her back From this heaven that I bring her Shes the angel in black With a halo on her finger

What am I doing here? This isn't what I want to be I don't want to let you down But this isn't the life for me I just want to make you proud But instead I'm breaking down Don't want to admit to the failure That I'm bound to become But it's hard to deny When my seams are coming undone And now I'm so ashamed Of what I've become I'm the only one to blame For my lifes outcome Now Im letting you down Time after time I just cant bring myself To do what I know is right And now Im letting you down Over and over again How do I explain Where do I begin Because all the things I never did Are playing over in my head And all the wo

You did not break me You only ever mended me You knew right from the start That you would break my fragile heart But Im stronger than you think I am I have no regrets of this I would go through it all again You brought me happiness Though many tears did follow But Im one that understands It was harder for you than it was for me Nothing can ever take away Everything that you gave to me I just wish I could have given you something That meant as much to you As all of this did to me You gave me a better life One that made me realize That Im happy to be who I am You helped me to reclaim The life I almost threw away But did I d

I dont want to be just a page inside a spiral notebook I dont want to be just ink on a line I want to be here for you to touch forever I want you to be able to see the look in my eyes I know youve been through so much before So many times you thought you found your knight I dont want to take you down that path If Im just going to let you down like all the ones before So I swear to you now that Im going to try To make sure that everything stays alright You mean more to me than you probably realize For me to hurt you is for me to die I swear to you now that these words are true I want so much to be the only one for you I dont want

She said her name was Luci. The diamnod she held was fake as plastic but she fooled me with her smile, easy. We talked for hours but no words ever formed, I can't explain it in a way that you would understand. She invited me back to her place and I was more than happy to oblige. The stairway was under construction so we had to take the elevator to 'Heaven'. Those big, full-moon eyes kept me blind to fact that we weren't heading up, but down. There was a dark side to those eyes. I realized more than a moment too late That the moon had turned a deep, crimson red And Luci's smile just wasn't the same. She wasn't out for blood, I

Look deeper inside This canvas of life So empty and hollow Take the time to make me whole I'll do the same for you If you'd only ask me to So alone and haunted We long to be wanted Whatever the price to pay There's a reason it's called 'cliche' That doesn't make it less true Not to ones like me and you We're running out of time Every second a sand of time Act before it's too late Don't just leave it up to fate It doesn't work out in the end Destiny likes to win Every soul is born to lose Defy yourself and make it through I will meet you at the end Where all life truly begins